Thursday, May 28, 2009

Simply Un-Fooled Around With

This past weekend i went to Austin and saw a few people i hadnt in a really long time. Plus it was with a group of people that will allow me to drink more in one weekend then I probably ever would naturally in a whole year. So i take that as my one chance to endulge cheap beer and then move on, get back to working out and working. Whats wierd is that my whole life i have this "out of body" experience when i'm not actually in the moment. This sounds nutty, but its like i can step out of the situation and observe whats going on from an outsiders point of view. Its like i'm watching myself and whats going on from a birds eye view. Then when i assess the situation i find it pointless (like drinking beer with ridiculous people) and then think how i could be doing so many other productive things and actually drinking something good for me, rather than bring me down and adding fatness all over my body. beer does not do a body good.


i always wondered how so many girls, like many i went to college with could drink soo much beer and never get fat. i rationalize this by how many hours their sorority made them work out after a social. good thing i just skipped the party and just worked out at the rec instead of being told to "step out of my comfort zone" when really i was recognizing from my "out of body" perspective that doing what they're doing was, in my point of view, a waste of time. I'm just that girl who will drink and be the one getting caught for doing something "illegal" and everyone else will run away. but whatever. i always felt like i should have been born many more years before i was actually born. i feel like a much older version of my real age. i'm the "responsible one".


ok so enough of my subconcious coming out and ruining the blog...

i've started to think i need another something extra to keep me busy in my extra 5 hours a week and weekends i'm not getting in my "full time job" (i.e, thanks economy). So i've become border line obcessed with weddings lately. Its actually a 3 year compultion in the making. theres something about the wedding industry thats so facinating to me. getting engaged seems (according to the many websites and blogs i've read) thats its seemingly one of the most monumental times in a couples life, let alone getting married. I cant decide if its ridiculous, all the hipe wrapped around the occasion or if its really the most wonderful, fabulous time ever. i suppose when i get engaged and married i will truely understand the emotion behind it all, but its something i would rather be "behind the scenes" for than have to do it as a front runner. well, rather just be behind the scenes first, then be the front runner. Anyways... here is a beautiful cake i found online, lovely huh...